I don’t remember when I first heard the phrase, embrace the mystery. I just know that I was not sure what it meant, but it definitely made an impression on my mind.
Now I see it as acceptance of whatever comes my way, without fear and as a result without trying so hard to control what happens. I used to be so afraid of ending up in a wheelchair. I quit smoking, did a daily workout with free weights, and worked as many hours as possible to have money in the bank and a decent disability check. I am fortunate in that my physical decline has been very slow. I did not purchase a wheelchair until 20 years after I bought my first cane – a walking stick for hiking, from L.L. Bean! I remember feeling frightened when I could no longer lift weights without pulling a muscle in my back.
It took me a few months after applying for disability to realize that everything was going to be OK. I need not have worried all those years. My fear ended up being a powerful motivator, but now that I am no longer afraid, I feel as if a whole new world of creativity and spirituality has opened up to me.
It’s like when you plant a seed and then let it grow. You make sure it is fertilized and watered, but the actual growth is out of your control.
I take care of my body by eating a balanced diet with plenty of fiber, rest when my body gets tired, and leave the rest to be as it is. Embracing the mystery was a step towards giving up control.
I must say, I am now the happiest I have ever been. I let go of my fears and embraced the mystery of my future, and of life.